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Tired of being tired

I’m sure I didn’t used to get so tired. My 40 something year old body just does not keep its’ charge as well as it used to. But it could perhaps be forgiven as it had to cope with 12 consecutive days at work with a 12 hour Sunday shift thrown in for good measure. There are well documented adverse health effects of working extended hours including: depression and anxiety; sleep quality; physical injury; coronary heart disease; and some cancers. There are also concerns about decision fatigue setting in by the end of a 12 hour shift. This has not been adequately studied, but it certainly feels true.

“Tired” by Sima Jo Benson.

It’s not merely long hours that have contributed to my fatigue. The constant chaos of the NHS is draining, driving many colleagues to retire earlier than planned. I attended a Kafkaesque meeting in which the first half was spent discussing the dictat that we find ways to save money. We are provided with no data, no suggestions, no project management support. There is also zero focus on improving patient care. Just save money. The second half of the meeting was spent looking at recent staff survey outcomes which are the worst they have ever been, showing staff feel unable to provide high quality care, do not feel in control of their services, and do not feel supported in their improvement plans. We were asked to explain why we are so unhappy and what we propose to do about it!

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Euphemistically speaking

This week Labour announced ‘reforms’ to the benefits system as part of Rachel Reeves’ Spring Statement. Reform only ever means one thing in politics: cuts. The narrative from Labour is that they are having to make ‘hard choices’ because the Tories left everything in a mess. ‘Hard choices’ is another euphemism, parroted by the cabinet to justify economic violence towards ill and disabled people. Attempting to frame this is a moral crusade to get people back to work must surely leave a bitter taste in the mouths of any Labour ministers who still have a conscience. As NEF has shown, the widely reported numbers of £4.8bn of cuts leading to 250,000 more people being pushed into poverty, including 50,000 children, were actually an underestimate. The government have attempted to hide the truth using accounting tricks, factoring in a never implemented policy called the Work Capability Assessment which would have made it harder for people to qualify for a higher rate of universal credit on the basis of illness or disability. It was never implemented, so whilst it may make sense on spreadsheets, it is irrelevant to actual people, living on very little in a cost of living crisis. NEF analysis shows that the cuts will hit ill and disabled people by almost £2bn more than reported and could see around 100,000 additional people pushed into poverty.

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Fragile hope

A ceasefire was announced between Hamas and Israeli forces. In the few days between the announcement and the proposed start, Israel killed at least 103 people and injured over 260 in Palestine. Netanyahu didn’t even wait until the start of the ceasefire to threaten even greater killing and destruction, and has called the halt to the bombing ‘temporary’. The start of the ceasefire was delayed as Netanyahu demanded the names of the first 3 hostages that would be released. During the delay Israeli warplanes attacked the northern Gaza Strip and killed 8 people. Hamas has now released a list of 34 hostages who will be released in a phased approach over 6 weeks. They include Ariel Bibas, age 5, and Kfir Bibas, age 1. The trauma suffered by these children, and the children of Palestine is unimaginable.

I like to look at the Guardian’s photography feature, the week in pictures. This week shows both desperation and hope in Gaza. The ceasefire is welcome, but it is merely a pause, it is fragile, and it is just the start. I fear that the international community will continue to fail the people of Palestine and that we will not see justice in our lifetime. But we must continue to demand accountability and repercussions for the perpetrators of genocide; and peace, justice, safety and self-determination for the people of Palestine. I continue to support Osama and his family and hope they get the chance to rebuild their lives and pursue their dreams.

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New year, new hope

It’s a New Year! January the 1st is not only the start of the New Year in the Gregorian calendar, but also the Roman and Julian, so if you’re still following the Julian calendar like the Amazigh people, then we’re in synch. There are of course New Years all through the year in different countries and cultures, and some New Years which move. This feels destabilising. I like the predictability of seasons and festivals. This week I learned that January the 1st is a feast day in the calendar of Eastern Orthodox calenders because it is the Feast of the Circumcision of Christ. I’m not sure this knowlege has enhanced my life. And now you can reflect on whether it has enhanced yours.

I did not stay up until midnight. I was pretty exhausted from work so had the most luxurious evening eating a lovely dinner and retiring to bed. My favourite thing about getting older is that I feel less and less need to do what’s expected and instead I do whatever I like! P__ stayed up but he’s a definite night owl, wheras I’ve had to accept that I’m more of a morning lark.

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Salt water

A non-exhaustive list of things that have made me cry this week:

Fast and slow

I seem to have lost a week in a blur of christmas parties, overflowing inboxes, overbooked clinics, carols and mince pies. And I am harbouring yet another Respiratory virus. They are persistent this year, with coughs lasting weeks. I was asked if colds last longer as you age. I can’t find any evidence this is the case. Illnesses last longer in those in poor health and at the very extremes of age but there’s no reason for differences in illness duration of 40 somethings vs 20 somethings.

Nutrition is of course a major determinant of health and immune funcion. A plant based diet is associated with a lower risk of hospitalisation in COVID-19. Plant-based diets provide micronutrients, including vitamins A, B6, B12, C, D, E, and folate; trace elements, including zinc, iron, selenium, magnesium, and copper; and the omega-3 fatty acids eicosapentaenoic acid and docosahexaenoic acid, which play vital, often synergistic roles at every stage of the immune response. Plant-based diets are also anti-inflammatory, and support a healthy microbiome. There is little data on diet pattern and viral illnesses other then COVID-19, an area that needs further study. Despite having grumbling illnesses for weeks I’ve not had a single day off work. I’m convinced it’s the plants!

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