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we are not numbers

I had a relatively quiet week at work, off the wards, so tackled my to-do list. It’s a long list. I chose my least favourite task, writing the ward rota for the Respiratory Consultants. Why is a Consultant doing this tedious task, you may ask? This is a symptom of more than a decade of underinvestment in the NHS and the false economy of cuts, and more cuts, to a dwindling admin support team, resulting in more and more tasks being piled onto the clinical workforce. It would have been unthinkable to expect a Consultant to write a rota ten years ago. From a public and organisational perspective, it makes no sense to have employees who are paid well for their expertise and experience, performing admin tasks. Whilst I wrestle with excel spreadsheets, and attempt to solve hierarchical constraints problems, I am not delivering or improving patient care. Not only this, an undervaluing of admin in the NHS has led to low staff retention and poor patient experience. False economy is a feature of the modern NHS. Next time a politician talks about ‘cutting backroom staff’, remember that the work of the backroom does not go away, it just lands on the desk of the front line staff.

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Tired of being tired

I’m sure I didn’t used to get so tired. My 40 something year old body just does not keep its’ charge as well as it used to. But it could perhaps be forgiven as it had to cope with 12 consecutive days at work with a 12 hour Sunday shift thrown in for good measure. There are well documented adverse health effects of working extended hours including: depression and anxiety; sleep quality; physical injury; coronary heart disease; and some cancers. There are also concerns about decision fatigue setting in by the end of a 12 hour shift. This has not been adequately studied, but it certainly feels true.

“Tired” by Sima Jo Benson.

It’s not merely long hours that have contributed to my fatigue. The constant chaos of the NHS is draining, driving many colleagues to retire earlier than planned. I attended a Kafkaesque meeting in which the first half was spent discussing the dictat that we find ways to save money. We are provided with no data, no suggestions, no project management support. There is also zero focus on improving patient care. Just save money. The second half of the meeting was spent looking at recent staff survey outcomes which are the worst they have ever been, showing staff feel unable to provide high quality care, do not feel in control of their services, and do not feel supported in their improvement plans. We were asked to explain why we are so unhappy and what we propose to do about it!

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New year, new hope

It’s a New Year! January the 1st is not only the start of the New Year in the Gregorian calendar, but also the Roman and Julian, so if you’re still following the Julian calendar like the Amazigh people, then we’re in synch. There are of course New Years all through the year in different countries and cultures, and some New Years which move. This feels destabilising. I like the predictability of seasons and festivals. This week I learned that January the 1st is a feast day in the calendar of Eastern Orthodox calenders because it is the Feast of the Circumcision of Christ. I’m not sure this knowlege has enhanced my life. And now you can reflect on whether it has enhanced yours.

I did not stay up until midnight. I was pretty exhausted from work so had the most luxurious evening eating a lovely dinner and retiring to bed. My favourite thing about getting older is that I feel less and less need to do what’s expected and instead I do whatever I like! P__ stayed up but he’s a definite night owl, wheras I’ve had to accept that I’m more of a morning lark.

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Week 0

I started this blog in 2011 because my job makes me think a lot – about people, life, death, injustice and how things could be better.” I often feel that I have too many thoughts, too many things to share, but not enough time to write a fully formed article or blog post. My partner writes week notes, a summary of things he’s working on, things that have happened in the week and things he has read or seen. Inspired by him, I’m going to give them a go.

It is week 41 of 2024, not a typical time for new starts. I am fighting my need for order and convention, attempting to accept that it is fine to start at any time other than week 1 of January. After all, these numbers are arbritrary and there are other calendars in which October doesn’t even exist, or New Year moves according to lunar cycles. In the Aztec calendar it is Day Ocelotl (Jaguar) which seems a great day to start something new.

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