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Death Cafe

I saw someone die this week. This is not unusual; hospitals are places of life and death. I sometimes forget how far death is from most people’s day to day life and how difficult it can be be when it comes crashing in. This week two people, completely independently, asked me if I was still hosting Death Cafes. These are events spaces for people to come together to drink tea, eat cake and face our mortality. I’ve attended many Death Cafes and last hosted one in 2017.

Breaking the death taboo over tea, cake and candlelight

Talking about death is hard. But not talking about it can be damaging, with wishes unknown, plans never actualised, questions never answered and things left unsaid. There is so much to be gained from engaging with the finite nature of our lives. And so I’ve decided to run a series of Death Cafes again.

There will be tea. There will be cake. There will be facilitated conversation. If previous Death Cafes are anything to go by, there will be laughter, vulnerability and comfort.

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An Unexpected Death

Death is part of life in hospital. Indeed, half of all deaths in England occur in these hives of activity, where we help many to evade the end for a little longer  [1]. Death is such a frequent part of our work in fact, that it can become routine. Last week a man died before we got to see him on our morning ward round. He died some time between having his breakfast and the 9am observations round. He was old, had been unwell for a long time, and his death was expected, although no-one predicted it would be that morning. It caused hardly a ripple. Nurses, doctors and physiotherapists exchanged surprised glances, then shrugged and immediately focused their attention on their next tasks. His death became an admin task, as the junior doctors planned when they would find the time to complete his death certificate, discharge summary, and paperwork for our departmental morbidity and mortality meeting.

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In the company of death

The Huffington Post have published an article I wrote on art and death. The edited version can be seen here. The original blog follows.

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An ever deferred death

“…just as we know our walking to be only a constantly prevented falling, so is the life of our body only a constantly prevented dying, an ever deferred death.”  Schopenhauer

I first read these words two years after I had qualified as a doctor. On reading them I felt a jolt: a reawakening of a feeling that I had buried. A feeling that I ran and hid from as I spent my days, and many nights, beside people on the brink of death. Schopenhauer’s words forced me to confront the fact that I felt threatened, fearful, temporary. I felt mortal.

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Those of us who work in hospitals are witnesses to ‘a constantly prevented dying’. We react in different ways, and we rarely talk about it, but I have recognised more than once after a cardiac arrest call that has ended in death, a fleeting flash in the eyes of a colleague that screams “that could be us, we all die!’

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